forgiveness, please? Thirsting for The father of creation

 I Was listing to the Avett Brothers new album, and this is what came out of my heart. 

god works in mysterious ways.

 This is why i fall in love with music all over again everyday. Music should be written with the soul intention of speaking to the human soul and shocking our hearts awake to the deep, purposeful, pains. And the soft, yet unshakable beauties we experience in this short and passing gift called life."There's no falling back asleep once waken from the dream." don't waste the gift of people, Love them. Don't waste your gift of life, CREATE IT. I love you, Please remember that As you read all of this.

 Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed. Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.

"When i lose my direction i'll look up to the skies And remember we're all in this together. if i live the life I'm given, I won't be scared to die."  The Avett Brothers.

HEAR ME NOW, I Have cerebral palsy. I'm in a wheelchair, 99.9% of time i'm in pain. GOD made me with his hands. and he is the MASTER artist of ALL. I am his masterpiece. My suffering, pain are of this earth. MY FLAWS OF WHICH, THERE ARE MANY are of MYSELF and my short falling short of GOD boy have I, EVERYONE HAS. You don't have to stand to fall short of The father of creation. 

FREE WILL: MY FLAWS.“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.  


Dear God, I come before you once again, knowing full well, That I cannot be judged by any court of earth that holds true and final verdict But, only when I STAND before you may I be judged. LORD, I Fall short today, I will fall short tomorrow. But everyday i have an aching thirst for the living water of your grace. God, I am a sinner FORGIVE ME. my misleading words and ways, my misspeaking and my untruths For setting my eyes upon things those things that are unclean and are not honorable to you And misleading and not being truthful about it at the time FORGIVE ME for my selfish ways, desires, words, and thoughts God, I’m only a man. A selfish man, Only of soul, not body. My body will melt away like snow in the sun. My body is meaningless if without my soul. For when the day comes, and you count me among your kingdom, my body will be of new. God, you said we would suffer in this world. My body is not who i am. i WILL SUFFER with you or without you. I CHOOSE to suffer with you, So That I may WALK down the streets of your kingdom when your day comes. Father, take me in your arms, and may i forever be your bride. AMEN.
Its your mercy that makes me free.


When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not shouting “I’m clean livin’.”
I’m whispering “I was lost,
Now I’m found and forgiven.”

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not bragging of success.
I’m admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I still feel t he sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not holier than thou,
I’m just a simple sinner
Who received God’s good grace, somehow!

When I say I’m a Christian - By Maya Angelou

                                 This man is amazing and he has been inspiring me all week.  
                                           God uses his instruments like no other musician.

Don't give up, don't ever give up.

" It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop."

                                                                    Wisdom of Confucius

 

Passions before goals.

Chase your true passion before chasing your “goals.” because, goals not built on your true passion, are not worthy of being your true goals.


“Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths, Enwrought with golden and silver light, The blue and the dim and the dark cloths Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.”  William Butler Yeats

My dreams, My passions, Love, Be loved, Make a difference…. You do not have to great mountains to make great  differences….just a few mow hills. :)

The only way out is through.

I get by with a little help from my friends. There is a reason I am who I am There is a reason I am what I am, There is a reason for my challenges. There is a reason i once didn’t listen, There is a reason i now hear every word. while I do not know what lies before me, I do know who he has put around me. While i cannot bare weight, I know he has bared every weight….. So if i stand let me stand on the promise that you will pull me through…. the only way out is through.

"If my path be smooth or rugged
If with thorns or roses strewn
Where i go the Father seeith
And He will leave me not alone

If I take the wings of morning
Far within the silent sea
Even there His hand will lead me
Even there my God will be

Though the gloom of night be round me
Though I cannot see my way
yet the Lord will see and guide me
Because unto Him the night is day

If my thoughts are good or evil
Set me think to hide them not
There is one above all seeing
And He beholdth every thought.

And ever more my eyes beholds me
And all my ways to Him are known
And His loving arms enfolds me
He will leave me not alone"

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

The only way out is through.

 He made me. He doesn’t make mistakes.   

Childish ways

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

My family and close friends especially those of whom knew me as a child…. knows this bible verse speaks of me….. Well, to a certain extent, As a man i must admit…. even a grown man acts of childish ways and speaks threw childish words from time to time. That being said….. you should all know by now… how much i like a good quote fitting of the moment….

“Now is no time to think of what you do not have. think of what you can do with what there is.” ernest hemingway

We can only make the best out of what life is, not what we wish it would be.

THE LOVE I HAVE FOR MY FRIENDS.
WELL THEN…. thanks for reading…

Fathers day.

There are only so many things i really know to be true: There is a GOD. He blessed us with life. He does NOT make mistakes. He loves YOU. Life isn't easy... (nor is it supposed to be!!) God blessed us with people who are there to lift us (IN SO MANY WAYS.) Those who ARE THERE WITH YOU/ME, Those who remind us who we are and what we are in the moment that we need to be reminded. We always know what we want... (rarely do we know what we need.) And, yes, I know, I am my father's son.... thank you... GOD... for making me... MY FATHER'S.... SON!!! <3

Where you invest your love, you invest your life.

Dinner with John: Video and written message. PLEASE READ.

John Bullard is a 23 year old young man, great in spirit, and has dealt with Cerebral Palsy all his life. John’s condition has historically been treated with coverage from Medicaid. Over the last few months, John has faced many personal challenges with this treatment. Medicaid informed John he was being forced to move to a HMO plan primarily triggered by his age. With this, the medical facility treating John informed him they would not be able to provide treatment. This is one of the largest and most respected medical facilities in the United States. Efforts to have this corrected have been futile, leaving John with no medical treatment.

John’s personal friends, moved by his situation, created this video. John and his friends are frustrated with what they see happening today. Special needs individuals are been forced into compromised or terminated treatment. John is not the only individual suffering with this; just in his small circle he knows similar stories plaguing them as well. This group of young citizens are very passionate about our politics driving the agenda, leaving the most disadvantaged behind.

Their request to us is simple, first and foremost for us to pray for change of this course we have created. Secondly, for us to distribute their message by forwarding their video in each of our circles, hoping that through doing so, we will get the message into the hands of individuals that may be able to help create change.

“I was born with Cerebral Palsy and someday,  I will die with Cerebral Palsy.

What matters?  Age and the budget? Or the human condition, and the quality of our lives?”

Please click the link to watch


Dinner with John: A video by Joshua Read

“Where you invest your love, you invest your life.”