Add in tension in my neck, ringing in my ears and random coming and going of pain... this is the "headache" since spring of 2008 and today hit me at 5:30 am this morning and hasn't let up. most of the time these days with my head when the other muscle are not... some days both at once. Saw the following on a message board discussion on migraines. "Used to be that i would get a weird sensation of numbness in the top or sides of my head. For about the last two weeks i have had a full tingly sensation that spreads from around my ear to half way up my scalp and on the upper jaw and cheek. When i used to get the numbness i would self adjust my neck and it would go away. This sensation comes and goes several times a day. It does not seem to be triggered by anything. Some times i can feel movement and even notice that the movement moves the classes on my face. today i can feel what seems to be my heart beat in the side of my face. My face almost feels like the sensation that you get when you go to get your wisdom teeth out and they stick you with that medicine."
I want to learn as much as possible in my pursuit of knowledge. While knowing very well, that neither you, nor I, will ever finish that pursuit of knowledge while on this earth. Why, with every new breath, comes a new lessen. I love it when God blesses me by allowing my eyes to open with a new sunrise. I love God. I love my family and friends, which in my life are one and the Same. I want to leave a mark; I want to make a difference. I sit now, But I will stand again. It may not be in this place, or “normal” by its evaporating standers which it falsely claims. But REAL, ever flowing truth. In my observation, rarely, in being REAL are we ever“normal”nor, in being “normal” are we ever being REAL. For who determines “normal” from REAL But HE, who holds all that is REAL in his hands. I am REAL, YOU ARE REAL, We are different in a few ways but in Many the same. We are REAL. What is “normal “but slow yet never ceasing evaporation of all that is false? And what is REAL, But, all that is strong, able, and, everlasting.
"He loved us, not because we were lovely to him, but to make us lovely."~ Tim Keller
“Going home Without my sorrow Going home Sometime tomorrow Going home To where it's better Than before Going home Without my burden Going home Behind the curtain Going home Without this costume That I wore” LEONARD COHEN - GOING HOME.
NOVEMBER is National Physical Therapy Month.... and I miss all of my P.T.S If you grew up with a disability you understand the impact a P.T. can have on your life. i miss them all everyday of my life.
Diane Funk Milhorn, You have no Idea how much i miss you... I don't have the words anymore.... Thank you for teaching me lessons that have lasted far beyond my walker and my attitude... Thank you.
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Corinthians 13:11 If you have someone who pushes you because they love you. to break down your walls of your own preconceived limitations, hold on to them. because they know what you can do.
You can only overcome your challenges after you accept them.
when your feet are on the ground everyday you take it for granted. When i could stand i was so focused on upset at the work that i had to do that i missed the reward, I never understood until much later that most times in my life how beautiful it was, My feet on the ground or my fragile step. A few years ago i went to run walk and roll with my father there were kids there in Gait Trainers walking slowly but determined every step of the little girl in front of me was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.
Without P.T.S that girl wouldn't be able to feel Gods ground beneath her feet.
C'MON..... SOMEONE HAVE MY BACK. ONE MORE GAME, ONE MORE SHOT AT THE TITLE, Ranger fans, All you can ask for is a chance. We're TEXAS RANGER FANS, Ten years ago.... We would have begged to have one shot to win the A.L. WEST Now we act as if we're entitled to it, WE'RE NOT. PLEASE DON'T TURN INTO YANKEE FANS OR A COWBOY FAN AND I'M SAYING THAT AS A COWBOY FAN....... GROSS. We're still in the dance. That's the way baseball go. #GORANGERS!
I Was listing
to the Avett Brothers new album, and this is what came out of my heart.
god works in mysterious ways.
This is why i fall in love with music all over again everyday. Music
should be written with the soul intention of speaking to the human soul and
shocking our hearts awake to the deep, purposeful, pains.And the soft, yet
unshakable beauties we experience in this short and passing gift called
life."There's no falling back asleep
once waken from the dream." don't waste the gift of people, Love them. Don't
waste your gift of life, CREATE IT. I love you, Please remember that As you read all of this.
Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and
make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put
out of joint but rather be healed. Strive for peace with everyone, and
for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.
"When i lose my direction i'll look up to the skies And remember we're all in this together. if i live the life I'm given, I won't be scared to die." The Avett Brothers.
HEAR ME NOW, I Have cerebral palsy. I'm in a wheelchair, 99.9% of time i'm in pain. GOD made me with his hands. and he is the MASTER artist of ALL. I am his masterpiece. My suffering, pain are of this earth. MY FLAWS OF WHICH, THERE ARE MANY are of MYSELF and my short falling short of GOD boy have I, EVERYONE HAS. You don't have to stand to fall short of The father of creation.
FREE WILL: MY FLAWS.“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.
Dear God, I come before you once again, knowing full well, That I
cannot be judged by any court of earth that holds true and final verdict
But, only when I STAND before you may I be judged. LORD, I Fall short
today, I will fall short tomorrow. But everyday i have an aching thirst
for the living water of your grace. God, I am a sinner FORGIVE ME. my
misleading words and ways, my misspeaking and my untruths For setting my
eyes upon things those things that are unclean and are not honorable to you And
misleading and not being truthful about it at the time FORGIVE ME for my
selfish ways, desires, words, and thoughts God, I’m only a man. A
selfish man, Only of soul, not body. My body will melt away like snow in
the sun. My body is meaningless if without my soul. For when the day
comes, and you count me among your kingdom, my body will be of new. God,
you said we would suffer in this world. My body is not who i am. i WILL
SUFFER with you or without you. I CHOOSE to suffer with you, So That I
may WALK down the streets of your kingdom when your day comes. Father,
take me in your arms, and may i forever be your bride. AMEN.
Its your mercy that makes me free.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not shouting “I’m clean livin’.”
I’m whispering “I was lost,
Now I’m found and forgiven.”
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not bragging of success.
I’m admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I still feel t he sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say… “I am a Christian”
I’m not holier than thou,
I’m just a simple sinner
Who received God’s good grace, somehow!
When I say I’m a Christian - By Maya Angelou
This man is amazing and he has been inspiring me all week. God uses his instruments like no other musician.
